PrettyRad-PrettySad

Goddammit. It hurts so fucking much. What did I do Tommi? Why did you walk away. Why did you leave my house for the last time. I still think about you every single day, and I still love you more than I've ever loved anyone or anything. More than I ever imagined I could love. You were the light of my life, and you taught me so much. You showed me how to love, how to be thankful for everything in my life. Told me that I can get through anything. You taught me that life can be a beautiful thing. And now all of those lessons are fading. You were always there. You never yelled, or raised your voice. You were gentle, and happy. Everything you sai

Things that make me happy: 1. Bonfires 2. Beautiful night skies 3. The outdoors 4. My best friends 5. My beautiful girlfriend 6. Roasting marshmallows and hotdogs on sticks above a hot fire 7. Long hikes through the woods 8. Cold water 9. Popsicles and ice cream cones 10. My extremely worn Vans shoes 11. Scratches from forests 12. Adventures 13. Music 14. Love (romantic and platonic) 15. Stars 16. The Beast (a beautiful 97 GMC truck) 17. Photography 18. The smell of sweat and forest on me 19. The pain on my legs from walking 20. Life.

Going under the spell, Taking one sip, Then two. Slowly but surely going faster and faster, Chugging the drink, Not being able to stop. Drowning, Throat aching, Brain screaming, Trying to forget the pain. Throwing up, In the living room, Crying. Texting your girlfriend for help, Calling her in tears, Not knowing why you did it.

Your eyes, A beautiful golden brown, Shine brighter than the stars, On the clearest night. Brightening my world, Whenever you look my way. They sparkle when you smile, Making me feel fantastic. Your smile, It's so big, You show your teeth, Such a beautiful sight. Your lips are so full, Full of love, Full of laughter, Telling me you love me. Your hair, Filthy blonde as you say, Falls perfectly over one eye. Beautiful when curly and beautiful when gayly forward. Even though you hate your haircut, It's marvelous to me. I don't care what you look like, Just as long as you're mine. Your face, Everything about it, Is absolutely perfect. It li

Falling, Too far down, Depression. Stuck, I'm left alone in the dark, Thinking. Tears, They roll down my cheeks, Pain. Everywhere, No matter where I look, Fear.